Day of Departure

Well, it's finally here. The day I move to Jordan. This day has been in the making for more than a year.

It's snowing outside and there is a 2 hour school delay. No airport delays. Tempurature is about 30 degrees. Just got off skype with Mark who says the tempurature in Jordan is about 70 now.

There is still much to do. I have a lot of stuff packed and still more to go. I don't know if I will be able to get everything in my suitcases. I think I may end up leaving clothing behind.

Yesterday was spent with my daughters Melissa and Cara. We had a nice brunch, did a little shopping in a bookstore, had Mexican for dinner and watched "Harry". Melissa was crying in my arms last night. It's hard to stay happy when I feel sad.

......it's 9:15pm. I am sitting in the Red Carpet Lounge at Dulles Airport. WOW has this place changed! I think the new security area is much better that it was before.

Melissa and Cara drove me to the airport. Melissa is really taking this hard. All she did was cry. She said this felt different than when I went to Bosnia. I think it's because I am the steady stable force in the family and I am the one that's moved and not just for a few months. Cara did not sleep. She said she was doing a lot of thinking. This is a big change for everyone.

Just got off the phone with mom. She sounds sad, but I think she's doing better than I expected. She said she'd call the girls and see how they are doing.

Diana came over to say good bye. Brenda fell down the stairs last night and is all banged up. What am I to do with her. I hear the sadness in her voice - I just want her to be happy! Please be Happy, Bren!

I tried to call my mother in law, but the call couldn't go through...I wonder if she emptied her answering machine!

I heard the Lynch's came to the airport at 4:30 to suprise me to see me off. I never saw them. When I spoke with Melissa she told me they had waited for me. I tried to call them, but there was no answer and I left them a message.

Well, we should be boarding soon.

I discovered that when you are excited about something and sad at the same time, you just feel numb.....no feeling at all. Sometimes I think it better to feel the emotion but I just don't know what to feel!

I'll catch you on the flip side.............