Air freight gone!!

Yesterday the movers came and packed up the air freight. Mark was here to help decide what was to go. It was very good having him here for that. He was funny. He kept asking if we reached the 1500 lbs ----we're only allowed 450lbs!! I did very well guestamating the weight. We were at 417lbs when all was finally weighed.

I have been fine until the movers finished. Then my anxiety level started going up. I could feel myself getting nervous. Now comes those small details. Canceling phone, cable, making sure Cara knows what needs to be done, making sure I get my bills, getting rid of all the junk in the garage, sell my car, getting health insurance....even though Mark has paid for it, I don't seem to be on the plan....what's that all about??! Medications are getting low! The Christmas tree is soooo dead! gotta take that down soon even though it's so early.

Megan is leaving 6am on the 31st! WOW! That's the day after tomorrow! Where does the time go? Mark leaves on the 1st. Then it will be my turn.

I'm starting to feel the emotions. The tears creep up every now and then. I try to keep them at bay. It's kind of like when I brought the twins to kindergarden for the first time. I was sad to see my little babies going off to school. They were growing so quickly and they were entering the next phase of life and I was tearful. I turned and walked out of the school and did a dance that I finally had 4 hours of freedom! I don't want to leave and say so long to my family and friends as I enter the next phase of my life, yet I can't wait to get there and get started.